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November 9th, 2008
09:55 am
Fuck my life.
I was at Stage's (first mistake) and put my purse down like I would have at Gracie's, Zaphod's, any respectable bar, on the stage right behind me (and coincidentally next to a security guy.) Next time I went to look at it, it was gone from the pile of coats and purses.
Trent ran around trying to find it, I ran around trying to find it, and finally saw a girl coming out of the washroom with it, who told me she found it in the last stall and was going to hand it in at the bar.
They took less than ten dollars in cash, my fat cheap ass cell phone (which my cheapest option to replace is an ugly "refurbished" phone starting at 130 bucks), my pink digital camera and red iPod (both of which were gifts from my dad so I was unable to tell the police when I was filing my report how much they're worth), my fucking Tic Tac's and gum because not only do they want to sell and hawk my shit, but they don't want me to smell minty fresh ever again. And the red dress I'd taken off and put into my purse. And my TD BankNorth Visa card with over 2,000 American dollars on it, my TD Canada debit (another 900 easy), my SIN card, Carleton campus card, Ottawa goddamn transit pass, Shopper's Optimum Card...
But! The best thing is that they DIDN'T steal my American passport, which is probably the most expensive and rare item in that purse. And they left me all my make-up. And candy. So I can both console myself through food and still have long, thick lashes... despite having no more phone camera etc etc
The pictures on my camera are of times that mean so much to me... that phone having text messages and numbers of people I love means more to me then they could ever earn from hawking it
And my product red iPod was just sweet looking, damnit.
I've canceled my Carleton Card, TD debit card, Visa card and phone, and thankfully they hadn't spent any of my money. And what I think was the ONLY text message they sent out of my phone? A message to Trent calling him a "NIGGA." Clearly, I was not robbed by a criminal mastermind.
Current Mood:  aggravated
Current Music: Jazzy purring, trying to console me
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October 30th, 2008
September 9th, 2008
07:27 pm - ISFJ - Sound like anyone you know?
follows the rules, polite, fears drawing attention to self, dislikes competition, somewhat easily frightened, easily offended, timid, dutiful, private, lower energy, finisher, organized, socially uncomfortable, modest, not confrontational, easily hurt, observer, prone to crying, not spontaneous, does not appreciate strangeness - intolerant to differences, apprehensive, clean, planner, prone to confusion, afraid of many things, responsible, guarded, avoidant, anxious, cautious, suspicious, not adventurous, fears doing the wrong thing, dislikes change
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August 9th, 2008
03:45 pm - Writer's Block: Less Than Idle Hands
Yes, ever so many of them.
I stare into space and twirl my hair almost constantly. My hair goes from being curly and down in the morning to straight because I've pulled at it so much and wrapped to one side in what I call an anxiety twirl. Dave is always moving my hands away from my hair. :(
I'm constantly adjusting my clothes, especially the bottom of my shirts, as is highly visible in some FaceBook videos.
I bite the inside of my cheeks, rub the skin between my thumb and pointer finger with my pointer finger, bite and rip my fingernails, am constantly moving my eyes and ears about to take in as much as possible, touch my face and chest (often resulting in awkward pictures) and pick.
The picking is probably my most 'OCD' tendency. I pick at my clothes, especially in winter when I'm wearing sweaters or any thick material that pills. At the end of lectures, there tends to be a pile of pills I've pulled off my clothing next to my chair. I also spent some time picking pills off Becky's socks once. I also pick at any imperfections - I've picked almost every scab I'v ever had and made it bleed, again. I'm especially bad with scabs on my face, and I've made myself bleed my picking so many times in public it actually sort of repulses me to think about it.
The thing I get yelled at the most for though is picking at Dave - I pick at him the same way I pick at myself without even thinking about it and it makes him feel like shit. So that has to change.
So yeah. This is kind of making me think I need help.
Current Location: Dad's action figure room
Current Mood:  anxious
Current Music: Gone Missing - Maximo Park
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03:38 pm - On Holiday
It feels so good to be away from Kingston - no offense all - but I was going stir crazy in my mess of a room, "working" from home. I am ever, ever so excited to go back to Carleton and throw myself into all six of my classes, into cooking (which it turns out I am capable of doing), into cleaning and decorating and making my new home with Dave, into being a Team Leader with Carleton Serves, and into (possibly?) being an executive member of Carleton's Meal Exchange chapter.
My 'dream job' contract runs out this week, so once I finish up whatever last things boss-lady finds for me to do, I'm home free, open to do all those things. This summer has felt like an incredible waste, like everything was at a stand-still. Miserable. Anyway!
So far this week I've been to my dad's museum, my dad's pool and have plans for an epic mall day with Keri tomorrow. Sounds like the summer I wanted to have...
Current Location: Dad's action figure room
Current Mood:  hopeful
Current Music: Music like the Servant on Last.fm
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May 24th, 2008
04:10 pm
So ignore all my other posts.
I'm the new Networking and Promotions Assistant for the Loving Spoonful. :D
No, not the posthumous band, but a new project from OPIRG about local produce and food security
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Because I Want You - Placebo
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May 21st, 2008
02:29 pm
Closed, closed, closed, closed, closed, and closed are the most helpful responses I've gotten from all my call backs thus far.
For one position, I applied on the 6th of May, and apparently that throws me into the late pile. To quote the Human Resources manager, "don't count on it."
There are some places that just apparently never ever pick up their phones or even provide any sort of acknowledgment that they've received your application.
I feel so rejected and useless.
I had such a successful year at school, but I feel like it means nothing out here in the 'real world' when apparently I'm not even qualified to answer a phone or punch data.
Perhaps I should significantly lower my standards and see if an A average in university qualifies me to deliver drinks to tables or ring through dollar store merchandise? Maybe my background in the liberal arts has best prepared me to do laundry or clean floors?
I'm just really discouraged with this whole process right now, and mad at myself for apparently missing too many deadlines and falling into late piles where I'm going to get ignored.
Current Music: Nothing Special - IllScarlet
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May 9th, 2008
11:30 am
I'm thinking you might all punch me for this.. but.. my final grades so far:
Undergraduate Course work
ENGL 1602 Twentieth-Century Literature: A
FYSM 1500 Literatures of Europe: A
LALS 1002 Intro Ling & App Lang Stud II: A-
PSCI 1001 Great Political Questions: B+
PSYC 1002 Introduction to Psychology II: A
I was really expecting an A+ in FYSM since it's a joke course, and another A in Linguistics since I did so so well last semester. The B+ just kills me to see :( Art History just came through, its an A- as well. *sigh*
And despite having applied for thirteen jobs I really want (plus a few random retail places) I haven't heard a single thing back.
And I'm kind of going stir crazy.
Current Mood:  disappointed
Current Music: 8 Seconds of Rain - Robots in Disguise
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May 2nd, 2008
11:34 pm
I took Sasha for a walk by myself the other day, which in itself is something noteworthy. I still have a fear of dog leashes being wrapped around my legs, tripping me up, causing me to fall backwards, with such force that I crack the back of my head open... But I wanted to do something nice for my sick mom and got over my aversion to dog smell and irrational paranoia and took off.
I watched her zig zag back and forth across the concrete, so exhilarated and enthralled by everything that moved, everything that possessed a scent. I started thinking about how much we can learn, how we should try to emulate the sheer wonderment with which she looks upon the world around her, so that every minute is a new exciting experience full of things to discover, with miracles hidden in the simplest of things. That even tracing the same ground on the way back she can discover something new on ground she has already covered, to find something of interest even in the most seemingly mundane things we would all overlook and miss, and I felt we all must miss out on so much by now being as open and as free as she...
And then she pooped in someone's driveway.
Current Location: No Sleep - Sam Roberts
Current Mood:  thoughtful
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April 28th, 2008
06:45 pm - Because I like to show such things off...
Midterm1(%): 78.00 (out of 100.00) Average: 66.2
Midterm2(%): 85.00 (out of 100.00) Average: 66.4
Final Exam(%): 80.00 (out of 100.00) Average: 64.4
GRA#1: 4.00 (out of 4.00)
Final %: 85.10 (out of 100.00)
Final Letter Grade: A
If this is representative of all my marks (which I'm pretty certain it is) then I'll be qualified to renew and bump up my entrance scholarship from 1,000 a year to 2,000 :]
Now to look for a job to help pay for the remainder of my tuition..
Current Location: Home, Kingston
Current Music: Gold In the Air of Summer - Kings of Convenience
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April 27th, 2008
08:53 pm
http://orebweb2.oreb.ca/mlssearch/frm_SearchMlsDetails.asp?x_mls_num=690966
We has a house! No more res!
Current Music: Peaches remix of Daft Punk's Technologic
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January 2nd, 2008
10:17 pm
Might I once again gloat/flaunt/post so I don't lose my marks?
This time 'round, it's Linguistics!
Total_assignments: 18.28 (out of 20.00)
Final Exam: 31.00 (out of 40.00)
Total: 88.28 (out of 100.00)
Total_before_Final: 57.28
Grade: A
May I add a YAY and also, hooray for keeping, and likely bumping up 500 dollars, my entrance scholarship?
Current Location: My dad's house :)
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Nothing currently
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December 28th, 2007
11:48 pm
Please, be in awe of my psych final mark:
| Final Grade (%): | 84.65 (out of 100.00) |  | | | Final Letter Grade: | A |
*dances*
And this is my worst class, marks wise!
All the studying and reading and reviewing and crying and ranting paid off.
I will begin giving nerd lessons in January.
Current Mood:  accomplished
Current Music: Australia - The Shins
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August 26th, 2007
11:28 am
I move in to my single room in Glengarry at Carleton University in one week.
I almost can't even believe that. This is taking forever to sink it. I need to start packing and preparing!
I'll probably be updating this more this year to keep people up on what I'm doing since I haven't been into MSN lately...
That's really all I have to say at the moment.
Current Mood:  blank
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May 8th, 2007
11:08 pm
| Which College Should You Be Attending? | 
Libby Ed
While still academically challenging, schools like Brown, Wesleyan, Oberlin, Swarthmore, Williams and Sarah Lawrence, offer a broader education. Steeped in philosophy, literature and history, these institutions are slightly more focused on giving you a diverse education versus gearing you towards a specific vocation. You will matriculate from these schools with broad minded and diverse. | | Take The Quiz Now! | Quizzes by myYearbook.com |
Thank you internets!
Now, does that mean I should go to Carleton, or University of Toronto? Hm.
Current Music: Anberlin
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